I’m simply deciding to be more deliberate. Deliberate about what I buy. Deliberate about what food I eat. Deliberate about how I spend my time. Deliberate about my thoughts and my prayers and the words I say to others. Deliberate about my relationships and to whom I give my time.
Being deliberate means slowing down. It means not moving at the speed of light around my kitchen in the morning, rather getting up a little earlier and doing my sunrise chores with quietness and joy. It means actually living my life rather than letting my life run me down like a herd of cattle.
Being deliberate is quieting, it’s well thought through and it’s internally calming. Being deliberate is the opposite of the crazy feeling I feel when I can’t get everything done. Deliberate says that it will all get done, just do one thing first (do it well) and then move on.
Being deliberate is about choosing well.
I believe Jesus was deliberate about the cross. I believe He was deliberate about the words He spoke and how He spent his time. I think Jesus was quieter than me, wiser than me and much more calm than me.
So I guess what I’m “giving up” to prepare my heart is the rush, the hurry and the crazy-worry that comes when I let life drag me along.
Do you practice Lent? What are you doing to practice it this year?